Tanya’s Back (Kind of)

Christine Kowal Animal Family

You have Absolutely and Completely everything that you need inside of you. The Spark of God Light Love Universe Creator The Holy Spirit Inside. You are Spirit, All Consciousness Inside.

Tanya, Life After Life

Tanya photographed by Mark Russell

When Tanya died I got very sad, couldn’t get out of my bed in the morning sad. And I couldn’t find Tanya, I couldn’t connect to her spirit and my whole world had gone flat and grey.

I made a two part vow. The first part was: To never get that sad again. Once I got out of this place I was going to figure out how to follow or stay with the spirit of the one I LOVED as their physical body went through the process of dying and their spirit went home to God. 

It took about about a year to be able to breathe again, I spent that year leaning how to feel life again and then I started on a journey of following the spirit of the ones I love through the dying process. 

Tanya had been my first major death. Up until that point in my life I’d been pretty lucky around death. However Tanya’s death began an onslaught as loved Animal family members and Human family members and Family who are Friends began dying and as each one died I got a little further staying with them in the process. It took ten years and finally with Zeus I made it all the way through with his spirit. 

‘Zeus’ mixed media on paper

You see the way to not be so sad when someone you love dies is to stay with their spirit.

Now there’s another part to this which took me another ten years to work towards and understand.
 And that is that we have a spark of God inside of us:

God or the Creator whatever your word for who made you, made everything and everyone and sits at the centre of all living beings. Thats why your gut instinct or inner knowing is always the right answer. It is the spark of God inside of you, connected to God, connected to the spark of God inside of everybody else and every other living being. All Consciousness.

Through the years I have experienced the death of many loved ones. One of the things about having Animals as my immediate family is they are filled with Pure White Light and that they simply don’t live as long as we do. But what I call their turn around time is fast.

That part of them, that spark fo God, their spirit that goes home to God also comes back to us, not exactly the same. God’s choice, when we are ready.

And when they come back, we can recognize them and bring them back into our lives. More on how to do that another time.

The second part of my vow that I made:

Was that I would not write this story until Tanya’s spirit came back to me. Some of my Animals and I are on our third time together( as I said before there’s a little more to it than that. But we can show you how.)

This is Tanya’s spirit’s first time back to me.

This is Caleb also known as Bunnie.
Caleb’s a Chihuahua. 

Our God Spark is forever. When Tanya was sick at the end, one of the hardest things was that she was big and I couldn’t lift her. 
God thinks of Everything.

I have never gotten that sad again
 and you don’t have to either. I can show you how to stay connected to the spirit of the one’s you love, through the process of their physical body dying. 

You can feel their love and joy and see them in spirit.And you can learn to open yourself up and recognize them when God sends them back to you. Our God Spark is Forever.

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